Why do we do what we must, and why must we do what we do?
There are so many rules and regulations on what we do and how we live. I thought moving away meant freedom. I am still held and bound by more strings than ever before.
I just want to learn and live my life. There are so many things I want to do, and places I want to be able to go. I want to learn about astrology, french literature, theater, and psychopaths. Find me a major that can encompass all of that and I would be overjoyed.
I wonder often if the time dedicated to what I'm doing today is time wasted. I am not sure what I want to do but I know what I should do.
Certain choices will bring success in future adventures but I think I'm becoming sick of adventures inside of classrooms and looking at life through a window, or a text book.
I'm sick of reading about things other people have discovered, found, and deduced from their studies and experiences.
Why should I do what I must. but how to I break away. I still do what I do because I must.
What is the point of grades and classes and a future career. what will i do, who will i be, how can i do what i love, what do i love, what would make me happy, how can i do something that makes me happy for the rest of my life, how can i work towards that future if by the time I'm done preparing for it I'm old and my future has already come and past, what if preparation for my life is stopping me from living it, how will i ever know until i look back with regrets, how can i live with no regrets, how can i do what i want without jeopardizing my future, what is my future, whats in jeopardy, how can i make any decisions
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